Walking on concrete barefoot. The cold feels good beneath my feet. Though I know after, my feet will be black as the night. Looking around I notice I'm early, but I don't care. I wanted to get a good view. This field, the pond, everything here. They bring back so many memories. Just a year ago you were stand beside me, holding my hand. It's amazing how fast time goes when you're with the one you love.

It was a cold summer night. I was shivering as always. Clinging to you for warmth. You were always warm. Even in the dead of Winter. I on the other hand was always cold, still am. You call me your Ice Queen and I called you my Sun Prince. Snapping out of my thoughts I find my dog licking my hand. You gave her to me to surprise me. I sit down petting her just like she wanted me to. Right behind her ears. In a lot of ways she reminds me of you.

Laying down in the cool grass, I shiver. I remember you holding me. Your arms around me not only kept me warm, they were my safe haven. In your arms, that's where I was safe. Now I am safe no where. Always cold. Always missing my Prince. My eyes shoot open. I really shouldn't of come tonight. It's a little over whelming. I don't get to see you this year...well I did actually. This morning. But you were in a coffin. You were cold...you didn't even look like you. It's too late now. The fireworks are starting, people are around me.

Gripping myself tightly, I watch as they begin. They crackle and sparkle. I remember you always held me close. Though I'm not sure if that was because I was shivering or you liked me close to you. You told me you were just being safe. Just in case something fell, you could protect me. You knew I was afraid of something hitting me. It was an excuse to hold me close too. But I didn't mind. I liked it just as much as you. Listening to your heart beat. For some reason it would always beat fast when I listened to it. I miss the sound of your heart.

The fireworks are too loud now. I can't even hear myself think. Which is good. Our first and last kiss....was shared right here, exactly right now. Laying down, me in your arms. I snuggled close against you. Looking up at your face, the way the light hit made you look like an angel. My angel. Your baby blue eyes were glowing with happiness, and you're shaggy brown hair was all over the place. You looked down at me smiling that crooked smile. I remember smiling back though. I loved your smile.

Then you did something I will never forget. You kissed me. It was a light, quick kiss. The taste of your lips were sweet, they were warm. I wish that would've lasted longer. I miss the taste, the warmth. I lay in the grass, remembering all of this. It hurts. Tears streak my face, but I don't stop myself. It's the end, I know it is. I just don't want to move. I keep hoping I'll wake up and figure out this was all just a bad dream. I'll be in your arms, and you'll smile at me again. Just smile for me please...

We always sat there at the end smiling and laughing at anything. But that night you told me I was the most beautiful thing you'd ever seen. That someday you would marry me. Then you laughed...you never told me if you were joking or not. Though I pestered you day and night about it. You just laughed and told me Tomorrow, I'll tell you tomorrow. I keep waiting for that tomorrow...

The pain is plain on my face now. I fingers are digging into my arms. I think I feel blood but I don't look. My eyes are closed tight. I'm focusing on going numb. Slowly I get up, loosening my grip. Shivering like mad I come back to reality. I realize it's almost midnight and start running home. Half way there it starts pouring. I slow down my pace. I swear I hear you laughing, you loved the rain. We used to dance in it all the time. Now I just stand in it alone and cry.

Looking up at the sky, I scan the stars. I close my eyes and I see your smiling face. I guess I start smiling too. Now calm and collected, I open my eyes and start running again. When I reach my house I don't even bother drying off. I go straight to my room. I grab your hoodie and put it on. Falling on my bed, I hug myself tight. The smell of you surrounds me, making sleep come easily to me. With a smile on my face, I fall asleep.

Tonight I dream of you
Tonight I'm in your arms
But only tonight
Only in my dreams