Water dripping down my face
Tasting saltiness in my mouth
It's nothing new
I can't see,
Everything's a blur
Somehow it still reminds me of you
My sight may be clouded
But I still see you
See your face

Hand reaching out to you
Shaking badly now
But in this moment...
There's not a care in the world
You're with me tonight my dear
Though I contemplate...
Is it really you,
Or just my imagination?
My mind likes to trick me

Hand falling limp
I cant move it at all
My body just laying there shaking
I have no control over myself
I can hear myself whimper
The sobs taking over me slowly
I'm starting to lose control
But then I hear something whisper softly
Like the wind blowing past my ear
But it's right in my ear, warm
Turning to look,
But I find nothing but more blurs
No you in sight
I swear I hear you though
Swear you were here

I close my eyes
Try to get my breath back
Stop sobbing
But it's a failed attempt
The sobs come back
Harder this time,
Stronger
I start shivering
My room ice cold
But then warmness surrounds me
Just like the warmness of your arms
I feel warm air on my neck
Like breathing...
Is it really you?
I remember you holding me close now

I try to escape the sudden warmth
Fighting for air,
Feels like I'm fighting for my life
Shake off the on coming memories
Hoping that if I shake of the sheets,
The memories tumble to the floor with it
But it doesn't happen...
I can't remember this now
Can't remember you anymore
I promised to move on
Trying to open my eyes
Nothing happens
I'm still enveloped in the darkness
Still lost in your dark, lifeless eyes

I broke my promise
No matter what I do
I can't move on
Can't forget you
I guess I'm no better than you
We both break our promises
But how did you except me to move on?
We all know that I'm still madly in love with you
Even you know that...

Unlike you...
I can't forget the smiles
Your smile always made my whole world light up
I still remember the laughs
That deep, thick laugh of yours
No, I won't remember you
I can't
Not anymore
I promised you
Promised myself
That I'd let you go
Forget the memories
But no matter how hard I try
My heart won't let me
Why is this so hard?

I end up like this everytime
In a complete mess
Just because I think of you
When you left...
Sure you took your love,
Your happiness right along with you
But you forgot my heart
All torn and shattered
You left behind all the pain,
The memories

Yet after all you have done to me
All the shit you put me through
I just can't hate you
Just don't have the heart
Literally...
But I can't clean up this mess you left behind
Can't forget what we had
What you did to me
So what do I do now?
All I have left is this broken life
This broken girl you left behind
So why can't I hate you...?